2017 recap

I remember everyone at the end of last year being all "2016 suuUuucked, let's make 2017 the dooOOoOpestTtt!!!!!" and, if we're being honest, I was secretly in the same boat. I'm a relatively pessimistic person, but I'm rarely outwardly negative (I'm a positive pessimist, which sounds paradoxical but we'll touch on that sometime in the future. Maybe). So basically I was ready for 2016 to be over but it's not like I was letting all of Twitter know. I was just kind of shooting prayers up to God asking Him to make 2017 a little less super duper terrible. And, in a way, He did.  But millennials believe otherwise. I'm seeing the same sort of stuff going around now at the end of this year. Now don't get me wrong, I was definitely present when certain chunks of the year were going to crap and I went through a lot of personal hardships too. However, I want to choose to look at it differently. 

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TWENTY BY TWENTY | 3. it's okay to care what people think

"Now that you've told us some of your strengths, why don't you tell us about some of your weaknesses?" asks the portly interviewer who has had this job for far too long and is spending their lunch hour interviewing candidates for a job nobody wants, but everyone needs. 

"Well, sir (or madam because, duh, it's 2017), I care too much." says the person who is so sure they are nailing this job interview with their totally original answer. 

This whole scenario hits a little too close to home for me. This is mainly because caring to an obsessive and unhealthy degree is not a strength masked as a cute, fake weakness for me; but it is a real, deep-rooted, and debilitating weakness. Ya girl cares way. too. much. About EVERYTHING. 

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yearbook one

Recently, I spent the months of August, September, and a fraction of October in a lovely little town in Utah called Ogden. This is probably the first and last time you'll ever hear of Ogden as it is very small and typically outshone by its siblings Park City and Salt Lake City. I knew approximately zero people in Ogden except for the nine others that made the journey with me, and boy oh boy do birds of a feather flock together. There is nothing quite like being in a city with very little to do where you know zero people to make you instantly bond with those in the same situation. 

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a note about coffee

Anyone who knows me even slightly well or has spent time with me for more than a couple hours knows that I have an inexplicable, undying love for coffee. It has gotten to the point where I am not even a coffee snob. I will take anything that was once in coffee bean form and is now a steaming cup/mug/thermos full of dark, rich, liquid energy. 

I love coffee. 

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TWENTY BY TWENTY | 2. remember the past, but don't dwell on it

Since middle school, adults have always told us to "live in the moment." They were all "these are the best years of your life!!!" and made sure we felt guilty for wasting even a millisecond of it. There's nothing inherently wrong with "living in the moment." The problem lies in prolonging the moment to such an extent that it becomes living in the past. Living in the past is a really attractive option, especially when we tend to romanticize the past and fear the future. The past is comfortable because we know everything about it and the future is terrifying because we have no clue what it holds. And while being comfortable is safer and entering the unknown is scary, the latter is definitely more exciting and rewarding. I have a story to prove it. 

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