I have no clue what I am doing

Here's one thing about me: I like self-explanatory titles. Another thing: I have a lot of trouble with confrontation (so it actually makes quite a lot of sense that I've resorted to a blog). 


I hate doing that thing where you introduce yourself in writing, because it is always terribly awkward and I always think I've done a good job and then a couple weeks, days, or minutes later I'll reread what I wrote and cringe about it until the end of time. Run-on sentences. I like those too. Also sentence fragments. So anyway. We're going to skip the introduction and the people reading this (or lack thereof) are just going to have to figure it out on their own. 


This past year or so has been one of the most challenging periods of my life. I have done so many new things (good and bad) and experienced so many new adventures (good and bad) and learned so many new things about myself (good and bad). I think that's pretty cool, and I think it's worth sharing. I have always felt that blogging (in my particular case, this does not apply to everyone!!!!) was self-centered. It always felt wrong to write abut me and about my life and about what I'm experiencing. But I have always loved writing. And also I saw my friend making a blog and I am a notorious copy-cat, so here we are. I think it's time to share a little bit more of myself. 

I also think that what I am going through/what I have gone through is not particularly unique. We all like to believe the universe revolves around us so sometimes I falsely assume that I am the only one on earth that feels or thinks the things that I do. I am always wrong about that. I'd like to think that maybe someone reads my run-on sentences about my thrilling, mundane, paradoxical experiences and identifies with what I feel. Maybe it helps them or maybe they think I'm out of my mind or maybe both (but I'm betting on just the latter).

I would like to point out, however, that I have not the slightest idea how to run a blog. Everybody seems to have one nowadays, and I can't tell you how many times I've looked at someone's blog and questioned all of their choices leading up to the moment where they thought, "hey, I should start a blog." Although I can't say I don't identify with said decision. One time when I was twelve, I thought it was a golden idea to start a blog about moving from Chicago to New York so I could update all my friends on what a life-changing time it was for me. I can't recall much of what I wrote on it except for the fact that it was titled Piper's World and that's about all I want to remember. That pretty much sums up the past experience I have with blogging, and if anyone ever managed to dig up that blog and see what kind of nonsense pre-pubescent me was going on about I think I would delete my life forever. 

So no, I do not know how to blog or what to blog about or what exactly brought me here, but it happened. And here we are. We're just going to have to muddle through this together. You jump, I jump, right? 

Also quick reminder: I have no clue what I am doing. 


things that make me who I am // things I love a whole lot